tonight.. practice.. after 3 weeks of not being able to.. and all i have to say is “yay.”  it felt so good.  thank You Jesus for what You’ve started. jme and allison came and watched us for a little bit.. so ask them what we sound like i guess. haha.. after they left, we played a little more and then just kinda went into this time of worship with just random praise songs for a really long time (but it didn’t seem like it at all.)  and yeah, that’s just been something i’ve needed for some time now.  i think we’re gonna try to do something like that all the time now.  so that’s cool.  ahh.. life is good.  i’m so happy to be on the right path again.

tomorrow’s new years.  i still dont know what i’m doing.


->hi, my name is brandon and i want to serve Him.
listening to: the evan anthem

new design!


i’m not sure if i like it yet.. but tell me what you think.  thank you steak for the picture of me in the background and of me and dustin..hahaha


 

today was fun and a half.  jme came to my church, and afterwards she, jason, and i went and ate fazolis..then became the JBJ Paparazzi squad adn just went around town taking pictures and videos.  (including mafia man..oh yes.  we now have more video of him. haha)


then we stayed at jasons for a while and eventually hannah, jadie, sarah, sarah d, and s(teak)ara came over..we ate pizza, played games, watched videos, etc.. then went to starbucks, walmart (where dustin met us, yay) and perkins.. i drank a lot of water.  then later sara, jason and i went to giant eagle and just laughed at magazines.  i literally hurt from laughing.  rolling on the ground. tears.  i donevenoh.  but i get like that from time to time i guess. “EVERYTHING THAT COMES OUT OF YOUR MOUTH MAKES ME WANT TO PEE MY PANTS.”  bahahaha.


and so yeah.  i need to say something to anyone that may have noticed a change in me the past few weeks.  i was definitely blind to the fact that satan had gotten into me in the most subtle ways and worked in me to the point where at times i just wasn’t acting like myself.  i don’t know how it happened, but it did.  and i fell into this rut.  and did things that aren’t me.  and yeah.. it’s gone now.  friday night i broke down and had a pretty amazing awakening from God.  i just wanted to say sorry to everyone for not being myself.  God has wiped me clean.  He picked me up right where i left off and set me even higher.  and that amazes me. 


thank you and you for everything.  you know what i’m talking about.


->hi, my name is brandon and i feel good.
listening to: passion – sacred revolution

i like smiling. 


my Christmas was pretty much perfect.  in so many ways, i just really loved it this year.  it was different, but in a good way.  receiving things isn’t important to me anymore.  i really didn’t care.  all i wanted to do was give and make people happy.  this is the first year where i felt like the things that actually should matter did, and the things that shouldn’t matter didn’t.  and it was good.  the thing at my church on tuesday night was just cool.  wow God, thank You again for sending Your son to die for me.


friday dustin and i went to the mall and made cards for people.  that was pretty fun.. haha sitting in the food court coloring on construction paper with markers while eating chik fil-a.  haha.  we saw val and jaye, and that was fun.  then i went home and played games with my family alllll night.  then i had some much needed dealing with things last night.. but it’s all good now.  again, Jesus, You amaze me.


and todayyy..nothing really happened until sara picked me up, we got jeremy and went up to kt’s party.  oh how i loved being around my friends i was with tonight.  seriously, everyone who was there, i love you. haha.. it was fun.  catch phrase, yarn memory game, music, fooseball, pictures, pizza, cards, josh’s storytime, and whatever else.  so yeah.  josh and i tied at checkers twice (once with not losing any pieces, the second time with us both ending up with one piece left) i got to meet billy (surprise! haha) and sean tonight, and theyre both awesome kids.  yay for new friends.  ahh tonight just made me smile.  and i like that. 


tomorrow’s church..one more week of no school to worry about.  i think we’re practicing on tuesday, and that makes me giddy like a little girl. 


g’night kids.


-> hi, my name is catch phrase. bahaha.
listening to: the juliana theory – love

i’ve learned conviction is the hardest thing for me.  i shrug it off as nothing, and tell myself i’m fine.  but i’m not.  i’m not perfect.  i’ve done things and said things about people that i’m ashamed of.  i feel sick right now, thinking about how many times i’ve let satan use my mouth for pointless humor.  some of you might see it as okay, like i so many times told myself it was, but that’s not me.  it’s not who i want to be, and it’s not who God intended me to be.  i strive so hard to live a good testimony, but what good is it when i do things that put it all in vain? i hate that i’ve hurt people.  i absolutely hate the fact that i’ve acted the way i have about certain people and things in my life.


but this is the end.


i’m coming clean.


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        Father, make me whole again
take my filth and wash me clean
                          do what You will in me
                             use what You’ve made in me
here as i fall down, i put myself in view
    i have failed to be a mirror pointed back at You
that You could see a glimpse of Your reflection in my life
                    on my knees, i cry out to You
                on my knees, i strive to know You
let my tears be signs of Your cleansing

+ these hands, what can they make for You?
+ these feet, where can they run for You?
+ this voice, what can it sing for You?
+ this life, what can it do for You?

i’m sorry.
i   a m   Y o u r s .


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->hi, my name is brandon and this is a new beginning.
listening to: Jesus.


and the first time that You opened Your eyes
did You realize that You would be my Savior?
and the first breath that left Your lips
did You know that it would change this world forever?

and i, i celebrate the day
that You were born to die
so i could one day pray for You to save my life.


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merry Christmas everybody.  i love you all so much.

hmm..something feels weird.  i dont know why or what.   but yeah…nevermind.  i don’t know why i just posted this. 


[edit]


i figured it out.

hungry, i come to You, for i know You satisfy
i am weary, but i know Your love does not run dry
so i wait for You. 

i’m falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for

broken, i run to You, for Your arms are open wide
i am thirsty, but i know Your love restores my life
so i wait for You

i’m falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for