i’ve found a peace with my life that i haven’t known in at least a year.
i like it.
i learned that i hate uncertainty when it comes to my life.
i learned that i hate curiosity.
i learned that i hate when i can’t trust.
i learned that i hate when i can’t find my faith.
but for some weird reason (weird to me at least), I was made this way for a reason.
who knows why, but it’s not my place to know.
i love that i find my imperfections daily.
though i can’t stand them, i’m happy with the fact that i have them for some reason, and that He gives me the strength and power to overcome them.
i’m so excited for my life.
not only the future, not only the past, but for right now.
i’ve begun to actually make an effort to pick up my cross and follow at the beginning of every day, eager for what is ready for me.
i love realizing that God was using me, when many times i had no idea.
i love the people in my life.
i love the events of my life.
i love where i am in life.
i love where i see myself later in this life.
and beyond that.
i don’t know where this was supposed to lead. i just felt like saying it.