i stole that from hannah..but it’s worth posting again. haahaha
i guess you had to be there.

here’s a survey.  you know you like it. 

Last thing you…
.: x ate– alpha bits cereal.  i’ve reclaimed my love for it.
.: x drank– milk.
.: x saw– this is dumb.  i see a lot of things. 
.: x touched besides the computer– my remote to the stereo.
.: x watched on tv– best week ever.
.: x saw in a movie theater– oh man.  i never go to the theater.  i think it was raise your voice back in december or something.  hahahaa
.: x wanted– class cancelled.
.: x needed– sleep.
.: x twisted– umm..i don’t even know.
.: x listened to– “sunday morning” by maroon5.
.: x squeezed– my dog.
.: x yelled at– my dog.
.: x punched– a kid that wouldn’t give me his lunch money.
.: x taped– saturday night live.
.: x graded– cheese. i know. grated.

Last time you…
.: x cried– when i got game over on super mario 2.  psyche.
.: x yelled– a few minutes ago at my dog.
.: x smiled– in the car listening to some comedian woman on 95.9..she was really funny.
.: x ate– a couple hours ago.

.: x changed clothes– this morning.
.: x slept– this morning.
.: x worked out– my fingers get a lot of workouts with guitar and piano and typing and pushing buttons on remote controls.  that’s about it.
.: x played a game– i played pictionary at zac’s on saturday.
.: x played a sport– i bowled twice on friday for josh c. and got a strike on the second try. 
.: x went to the mall– saturday.
.: x went to the movies– months ago.  i don’t even know when.
.: x ate fast food– saturday.
.: x went to church– yesterday.
.: x talked to someone– in class.

.: x Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Write down what it says: “Since time immemorial, people have curled, permed, chopped, frizzed, streaked, and baked their hair into fabulous shapes.”  hahah it’s a book about mullets.
.: x Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? the pole of a lamp.
.: x What is the last thing you watched on TV? best week ever.  i already told you this.
.: x Without looking, guess what time it is: 2:20
.: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 2:39..yikes. haha

.: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? nothing.  my house is silent.
.: x When did you last step outside? Why? 12:30-ish to go to class.
.: x Before you came to this website [started this survey], what did you look at? my e-mail.

.: x What are you wearing? a red polo-ish kind of shirt and jeans.
.: x Did you dream last night? yes.
.: x When did you last laugh? in the car.
.: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? um.. lots of pictures and posters.
.: x Seen anything weird lately? yeah.. i don’t understand what is falling from the sky.  it’s not snow, but it’s not rain.
.: x What do you think of this quiz? i’ve seen better.  but i made it so cool that people won’t know what hit them when they read it.  if they read it.
.: x What is the last film you saw? drop dead gorgeous.  oh man..it was way better than i thought it would be.
.: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? tuition. and a keyboard. and a car. and another guitar.  ..rar.
.: x Tell me something about you that I don’t know: i have a card on my door that says “OH POOP” and a baby sitting on a pitcher.  i guess some of you know that though. go here if you’d like to see it.
.: x If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? let the world hear the gospel.
.: x Do you like to dance? sometimes.
.: x George Bush: he’s cute. in an old man very heterosexual way.
.: x Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? i like alex and cameron a lot. 
.: x Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? noah.
.: x Would you ever consider living abroad? i don’t think so.  i guess it depends.
.: x What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? “i’m proud of you.”


this made me happy.




i feel like puking thoughts.  you can read if you want.


so i’m starting to fear next year.  why?  i don’t know.  i know where fear comes from, and it’s from a place that i cannot let bring me down.  i will not.  i think getting away is essential for me to grow.  but i’m so scared of not being around what i know or who i love.  at the same time, that’s part of what makes me so excited. 

i don’t want people to get in their head that i’m just leaving everything behind.  it isn’t the case.  it’s going to be hard to not see people.  i won’t even be here for my nephew’s/niece’s (whichever it is) first few years.  hopefully i’ll be around enough on holidays and summers and extra weekends that it will still know me.  and i hope i don’t lose friends.  i already see the majority of my friends few and far between, and it makes me sad.  but i hope they realize how much i enjoy the times that they are around.  people here mean so much to me.  i don’t want to lose them. 

i wish i could sit everyone in the world down and put in detail of how clearly and amazingly God has worked in my life in these short nineteen years i’ve been around.  this past year especially…goodness gracious. 

yesterday i listened to ghoti hook (banana man) like i did when i was thirteen.  i really was too cool for middle school.

there is so much going on.  i love that.  breaks and ruts are necessary to appreciate times like this.  and i’m glad God puts me in seasons

speaking of seasons, blizzards still make me full of joy.  i don’t even care if i don’t get snowdays.  i just love snow.  a lot.  (another one is coming tomorrow..or..tonight.) this will make spring seem that much sweeter when it comes.

i think my church is in store for awesome things this morning.  i hope i open myself up enough to be used effectively.  i like that feeling.  it’s what i live for.

i loathe cigarettes.  i don’t hate very many things, but cigarettes are probably at the bottom of my likings.  down with ciggy butts.

today i found a checklist of what i thought my wife will be like.  i still think it fits.  people think it’s weird when i talk about this stuff, but i’m over that.  i don’t think i’m ready to date.  i know i’m not at this moment.  but the time will come, and the world will deal with it. 

i’m excited to have a recording for whatever way God wants to use it.  for those who don’t know, i’m in the beginning stages of recording twelve of my songs.  He’s worked it out.  He has a plan.  i’ll know it when i know it, but where i am right now is exciting.

i’m also now working for the alive festival, helping with web design and the new online magazine.  the alive festival will be scrumtrilescent this year, and you should go.  www.alive.org . you can see some things i’ve redesigned so far.

my ramblings are bland and stupid.  i’m sorry.  i love you all.


i believe it’s time for me to shine
wrapped in love that’s so divine
i owe it all to You
so now i bring an offering
my heart to make Your angles sing
every day, show me Your ways

i’ve done a lot of studying.
i’ve done a lot of thinking.
i’ve done a lot of reflecting.
i’ve done a lot of praying.
i’ve done a lot of wondering.
i’ve done a lot of watching.
i’ve done a lot of exploring.
i’ve done a lot of learning.

caught in motion is a good place to be.

 how could such a King
shine His light on me
and make everything beautiful again?

Don’t be in any rush to become a teacher, my friends. Teaching is highly responsible work. Teachers are held to the strictest standards. And none of us is perfectly qualified. We get it wrong nearly every time we open our mouths. If you could find someone whose speech was perfectly true, you’d have a perfect person, in perfect control of life.

A bit in the mouth of a horse controls the whole horse. A small rudder on a huge ship in the hands of a skilled captain sets a course in the face of the strongest winds. A word out of your mouth may seem of no account, but it can accomplish nearly anything–or destroy it! It only takes a spark, remember, to set off a forest fire. A careless or wrongly placed word out of your mouth can do that. By our speech we can ruin the world, turn harmony to chaos, throw mud on a reputation, send the whole world up in smoke and go up in smoke with it, smoke right from the pit of hell. 

This is scary: You can tame a tiger, but you can’t tame a tongue–it’s never been done. The tongue runs wild, a wanton killer. With our tongues we bless God our Father; with the same tongues we curse the very men and women he made in his image. Curses and blessings out of the same mouth! 
–james 3:1-10 (msg)

wow.  how disgustingly true.

take my life and let it be  consecrated, Lord, for Thee;
take my moments and my days, let them flow in ceaseless praise.
take my hands and let them move at the  impulse of Thy love,
take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee;
take my voice and let me sing always, only, for my King,
take my lips and let them be filled with messages from Thee;
take my silver and my gold, not a mite would I withhold,
take my intellect and use every power  as You choose.

i got to see some of you tonight.  it made me happy.

serving Jesus makes me so excited and satisfied.
my life is moving.
i like it a lot.

sorrow growing softly
creeping below this weaving of a heart
smiles fading slowly
erasing the trace of joy that sets me apart

patience gaining distance
passing farther from my peaceful set of mind
hope becoming gray
shadows looming on the path I am to find

grace destroying chaos
calming the waves that flooded my soul
peace battling heartache
clearing the wounds that felt beyond control

love overcoming darkness
restoring color in empty shades of gray
joy beaming over mourning
resounding loud and clear for me to start a new day


and yes, that cup says “hick” on it.

i don’t have a bottom.


there isn’t anything worth posting about, so i’m yet again declaring my love for music by artists such as david crowder, eisley, mae, starfield, chris tomlin, something like silas, and mute math.  i cannot get tired of any of them. 

this weekend is looking fun.  and i’m not sick!

soon, i hope i can see you.  and you.  and you and you and you and so on.

i drove with the window down on tuesday.  it made me smile.

and yes, i say bottom.



take my fear
and shake my doubt.
let Your Spirit move me now.

You’re in control. You’re in control.


days like today leave me wishing for spring.
i love snow, but come on.  not needing a jacket is nice.

and i’m glad valentine’s day is over. 
i was getting tired of hearing people complain about it.

the end.