i’m learning a lot about faith.
i’m learning a lot about hope.
i’m learning a lot about grace.

being sick and putting life on hold for two entire months is a very tough thing to do…especially for someone like me, who loves having lots of things happening at once, loves seeing as many people as possible, and loves living in general.  it can tear away at a person big time.  it’s torn away at me..  but i’ve seen how feeble i can make my faith sometimes.  i know that God will lead me through this, but satan tries to take away hope.  he wants to seek, kill, and destroy.  but i’ve realized what a difference faith makes in every situation, knowing and believing that God is active in my life, even though my “life” seems to be so inactive. 

and i could be so much worse.  grace has been given when needed most.  God has worked everything out that i’ve needed.  i’ve learned so much through these times.  i’ve kind of realized who will be there once i’ve gone away.  i’ve also noticed how little time i give God during my day, even though so many times i blamed it on the fact i was busy, and still felt like i was giving a big enough chunk of time.  now that i do nothing, it’s just as little, and i have nothing to blame it on.  i’m learning what i can handle.  i’m grasping the fact that this is all temporary.  i’m gonna be okay, and i’ll be my normal, active self soon enough.

i’d like to hear from people.  call me. visit me. IM me. send me things.  let me know you’re alive.  and most of all, prayer is the best possible thing.  you can help speed up my recovery by just making me happy.  i love and miss you all.

rarrr.

You stand on mountain tops with me.
with You i walk through the valleys.
You gave Your only Son for me.
Your grace is all I rely on.