here’s a continuation of the last post..

also, you should go check out www.alive.org and look at the new magazine i finally finished. 

prommmm.  i love how the sun is blinding EVERYONE but micah.


yarrr!

cedar point after prom…haahaha chad…i’m too wussy to go on big roller coasters.  but now that i’ve had vertigo, i can finally have an excuse. 

dancing in the twilight with val and shawn.

happy jaye at alive.

andy and sara in a magical forest (clay’s park).

playing with josh/james/dustin.  i miss this oh so much. ^

jme, megan, val, me, and zac at the richard marx concert on the fourth of july..haaaha

being stuck in the girls’ bathroom in nashville.

the effects of a windstorm in nashville.  seeing those tons of metal racks all of a sudden start rolling at us and down the steps was one of the funniest and most exciting moments ever.

val, megan, brandon n, jason, jd, shawn at chili’s after watching fireworks.

jd and jason with max…i can’t find the erma picture.

watching fireweorks with 3D glasses is the BEST.

cleveland makes the heart grow fonder.

me, carrie, jess (yes, she might be possessed in this picture), jeremy, and jason after the blindside show..haaha

taco bell after blindside.

hannah trying to murder me while painting the youth room.

we couldn’t get that through the door, so we carried it through the window.

creeps in a window.

the little mermaid.  i mean jeremy.

jeremy catching jd after ernest angely hit his head.

taco vall

dc talk dance parties in the parking lot!

running man. (men?)

shaken.  oh how i miss it.

playing in my dorm room with jeremy.

still playing in my dorm room with jeremy.

leaping off of lisa’s porch.

late night at malone with mike and matt.  i miss these kids.  (mike is making duck calls at people while they walk by.)

haha

zac on the way to wld.

me, ashley, katie, savannah, carrie, and jess at our last wld. sniff.


jason trying to scare me before i go to sleep.

bowling ball racing with kelley ecccck.

ballroom dancing..i mean bowling alley dancing with josh c.

everyone else dancing. the only person i can make out is megan..haha

josh, me, and val after playing in the rain.

polly pocket.

kathryn the phantom and her puppet…and josh..and the backs of genna, luke, maria, amy, and some other people’s heads.  i don’t take very good pictures.


and that concludes my walk down memory lane.  i hope you had more fun.

the other day i was going through a bunch of pictures on my computer, and i got really nostalgic…most likely because i haven’t gotten to see much of anyone for the past couple months.  so here are some of my favorite pictures (from my computer) from the last couple years of some of my favorite memories with some of my favorite people (in somewhat chronological order). there were a lot, so i split them up. got that?

 here’s the first half.

climbing the tree in front of my house with jason and making noises at people that walked by.

 
following the rules with jess in denver during iyc (look at the trash can).

sarah being a superhero at the dead or alive..haha 

a random picture of jason and me that i never remember seeing in my life.

old school trans4m.

watching ernest angely’s new years extravaganza with sarah, sarah, kelley, and jason.


sarah and i at peabody’s.

sarah d practicing our vegas show.

 
sarah and kelley collecting taco bell stickers.

my very first mullet. (sarah’s chopped off hair that was cut in the bathroom at that show)

ryan, zac, and i trying to take our minds off the fact we’re about to risk our lives to go on a cable car up a gigantic mountain in georgia.

carrie, zac, marlesa, jess, savannah, and me in atlanta at the scariest food court ever (the workers scream things at you as you walk by).

me being a pop star.

val being a rock star.

identical buttttts.

me and josh not being able to beat each other at checkers (we tied once with all our pieces left..then again with each only one piece left).

kaite’s christmas partyyyyy.

pretending to fall down kaite’s steps with jeremy.

pretending to fall down kaite’s steps with dustin.

hannah and i being pretty kitties. rarrr. 

 
jd, me, and val looking like we’re sad scene kids…haaahah

OOO WOW, MOM, COW!

wld!

carrie and mysterious jessica.

playing with josh and dustin for sarah’s birthday.  i miss this. ^

cry, cry, cry.

haahaha there are so many things funny about this picture.

playing with dustin at my church.  i miss this. ^

oh, the joy of getting through whole days of art classes while getting nothing accomplished except things like this. 

sara and i at the david crowder concert. 

dustin and i coloring things for jme’s birthday.

 
frolicking with jeremy in the taco bell parking lot.

haahahaa this picture would be funny if you were behind the camera.  but only sara and val would get that.  we were hiding behind a curtain at josh’s house.

xpicturecorex ❤     …haahah

 
valien

i’ll post the rest later.  i hope you had fun.

this is me and my twin cousin when i was two or three. 
i miss being little.

this lady predicts that in two decades, the west coast will fall off and atlantis will reappear.  we will all live in domed cities, and all houses will have third floors with peel-back roofs for hovercrafts.  she also says that aliens will invade our planet in five years and “they will teach us how to use anti-gravity devices again, such as they did for the pyramids.”. 

on her website, her proof that she’s really a psychic is that robert blake was found innocent like she predicted.  those 50/50 chances can be hard to figure out i guess.

in other news, i have no life.

it’s going to snow this weekend, so you should all get your complaints ready. 
it’ll be warm again soon, i promise.

so i decided to change things up again on here.  i hope you like it. 
if you don’t, wait until my fickle tastes do their job.   orrr something.

this is my friend that is a goose.  i met him (or her..how do you know?) at the park on sunday night.  i need help naming my friend.  give me ideas.

if the current weather was a person, i’d give him/her a hug.  it’s making my feeling better just that much easier.

i don’t really have anything to say.  the world is kind of running by while i sit here with vestibular neuronitis.  i’ll return to life soon enough though.  you just watch out.

and for the record..i don’t know what i ever did to the spider species, but i think it’s out to get me.  spiders are haunting me (and only me) in almost every room of my house.  ONLY ME.  nobody else sees them.  ever.  do they make spider traps?  someone let me know, pleeeease.

that explains my thought process tonight. ^

i don’t even know. 
i think i could blab for hours, but i don’t necessarily want to.
so eager, yet so flustered.
so hopeless, yet so hopeful.
so determined, yet so feeble.
so mentally stagnant, yet so insane.
learning to trust, trying to understand.
gaining hope while trying to stay afloat.

His joy comes with the morning in more ways than one.

where truth and flesh collide,
(in my heart) be glorified.
…and You cover me.

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does anyone else get really bothered when a single person says “we’ll see ya”?  i’m forced to imagine the person believing he or she has an imaginary posse.  or something.

so i went to a specialist today.  i got good and bad news.

the good news is that nothing is seriously wrong with me.  i have what i thought i had (vestibular neuronitis)…a nerve in my head that connects the ear to my brain was affected during a cold or something that i had in february.  since ears tell our brain where we are in space, my system of balance was thrown off when this nerve got affected…which brings on the dizziness and nausea (vertigo) when i try to do things. 

the bad news is that nothing can really be done to speed up the recovery.  it could still take several more weeks for this to be gone.  i go back in six more weeks to make sure i’m better, and if it’s not, they’ll check for other things. 

so…now i need to worry about figuring how i’m going to get it together to finish the last couple weeks of school. 

prayer is still appreciated more than ever.  prayer for patience, prayer for recovery, prayer for school, prayer that i can understand what God is doing in my life. my schoolwork, my ability to be in church, my recording, my job, and the rest of my life has been put on hold, but i know there’s a purpose.

i cannot express how faithful God’s been to me time and time again in the past several weeks.  my faith has been so ridiculous, but He’s taught me how to trust.  He’s teaching me how to wait, and He’s teaching me about His grace. 

it looks like i still might not get to see people for a while.  unless i get visitations.  or unless people want to go to parks and lay in the sun with me.  or just call.   



i’m so over this. 

i know i post a lot of pictures of the sky, but i have an obsession.
or maybe it’s more of a fascination. 
if you don’t like the sky, i’d suggest staying indoors.


i give the weather this weekend a fifty on a scale of one to ten. 

i’m slowly getting back to my old self again.  some days are better than others, but i’m starting to remember what it’s like to feel good.  i still need prayer, but God is unbelievably faithful.  summer is so close, but yet so far.  

does anyone like newsies?  i miss it a lot, and i think i want to find the dvd. 

nobbin’ wit all da muckety-mucks
I’m blowin’ my dough and goin’ deluxe
and there i be
ain’t i pretty
it’s my city
i’m da king o’ new yohk.

my new favorite spot. ^

survey stolen from jott scoshua.

you should read it all.  you would get ten points.  maybe even ten thousand points.

last cigarette: nonexistent.  i hate cigarettes with a passion.
last car ride: home from lake cable.
last kiss: my dog.
last good cry: when i finally learned to trust.
last library book checked out: simon cowell’s book. …i know.
last movie seen: the missing.  it could’ve been made an hour shorter and not really taken anything worthwhile out of the movie.
last book read: hebrews
last cuss word uttered: you don’t have to believe me, but it hasn’t happened. 
last beverage drank: sprite.
last food consumed: italian bread with peanut butter on it.  mmm.
last crush: for me to know and you to not.
last phone call: i have no idea.  the past month has been a blur. 
last tv show watched: alias.
last time showered: this afternoon.
last shoes worn: my white and brown ae shoes.
last cd played: “our newest album ever” by five iron frenzy for the firs time in years and it feels SO GOOD.  seriously. i almost forgot my love for this band.  and i’m glad i still know every word.
last item bought: the everglow cd (mae)
last downloaded: “sunday morning” by maroon 5
last annoyance: sickness. (i guess that’s vague..but it pretty much sums it up.)
last disappointment: missing out on an entire month.
last soda drank: sprite.
last thing written: i was painting earlier..does that count?
last key used: the b key.
last word spoken: “geek.”  i’m singing with five iron frenzy because i love them.
last sleep: this morning.
last im: mikkele and jeremy.
last weird encounter: ducks. 
last ice cream eaten: i don’t know..it was a lonnng time ago.  i don’t like ice cream very much.  it’s so…cold…and milky..and it always makes me thirsty.  give me a slushy.
last time amused: conan o’brien.
last time in love: i can’t say i’ve been in love (unless you’re talking about my relationship with my Creator).
last time hugged: if not my mom…then probably when i saw val last weekend.  seeing a friend was exciting.
last time scolded: last night when i was afraid of my medicine.  haha
last time resentful: when nikko got kicked off american idol.
last chair sat in: before my current chair..probably in the car.
last underwear worn: goodness gracious.  if you need to know, my underwear is navy.
last shirt worn: a “how to grow a mullet” t-shirt my awesome friend sarah cornelius made for me a while back.
last time dancing: when i realized how happy five iron frenzy made me.
last poster looked at: an old school supertones poster from middle school.
last show attended: yikes..a high school battle of the bands, if that even counts.
last webpage visited: photobucket.com

1 MINUTE AGO: guess.
1 HOUR AGO: sitting here.
1 DAY AGO: watching full house.
1 WEEK AGO: probably sitting here or in bed.
1 YEAR AGO: probably in bed.
I HURT: when i hurt others.
I LOVE: a lot of people and things, but i’d have to say God takes the cake.
I HATE: sickness. i really, really do.  and i hate not being able to see people.
I FEAR: a lot of things, but i’m finally understanding the act of casting my anxieties in the One who’s in control.
I HOPE: to jump back into my life really soon.
I FEEL: like i’m getting stronger.
I HIDE: my imperfections and insecurities.
I DRIVE: automobiles.
I MISS: so much.
I LEARNED: so very much.
I NEED: grace.
I KNOW: that there’s a lot i don’t know.

current clothes: comfortable gray pants and my how to grow a mullet t-shirt that sarah made me.
current mood: content.
current music: five iron frenzy, in case i haven’t mentioned it enough.
current taste: kool aid.
current hair: it’s kind of going crazy..i had a really bad itch earlier, and now it’s having fun.
current annoyance: surveys.  this is long.
current smell: my loveliness.  psyche.
current thing i should be doing: sleeping.
current desktop picture: the sky.  go figure.
current refreshment: the fact that his is almost done.
current worry: “Because He lives, all fear is gone.”

 

little oscar has a ruptured anal gland.  

…i’m serious.  how sad is that?  and since he keeps biting it, he has to wear a newborn baby outfit.  i feel embarrassed for him.

today was the first day since february that i haven’t felt sick at all.  not one time during the entire day did i feel bad.  take that, vertigo.  i stopped taking my medicine because i decided it didn’t help, and i guess i was right.  better days are ahead for sure.

today i went to lake cable and ate chic fil-a and layed on the docks.  oh man…it was nice.




i fear that everybody forgot about me since i’ve barely seen anyone in five weeks. 
i hope you guys still want to be my friend.   

check this out.   …….SERIOUSLY. check that out and then try it on your xanga.

“in Christ alone will I glory, though i could pride myself in battles won. for i’ve been blessed beyond measure, and by His strength alone i’ll overcome. i could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands, but those trophies couldn’t equal to the grace by which i stand. in Christ alone do i glory, for only by His grace i am redeemed. for only His tender mercy could reach beyond my weakness to my need. and now i seek no greater honor in just to know Him more. and to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord.

In Christ alone, i place my trust and find my glory in the power of the cross. in every victory, let it be said of me. my source of strength and my source of hope Is Christ alone.”

i’ve kinda been through a lot of so-called “wilderness” this month.  as hard as it’s been, i’ve constantly heard a voice and seen a light through it all that gave me comfort when i was at such a desperation.  i was constantly reminded of the song that says “You stand on mountain tops with me; with You i walk through the valleys.”  He’s always here.  i hate that i forget that sometimes.  i’m not out of the wilderness yet, but i know it’s coming.  i’m gonna be okay.  and things will soon be looking up.

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my current love interest is mae’s new album (minus the creepy and unneeded prologue and epilogue), and i think you should all go get it.  right now.

and in other news, today my mom told me that there was a spider on my head. 

happy april fool’s day.